Saturday, April 01, 2006

Cynical and Jaded= Piss Poor Existence

Being cynical shuts out a lot of life experiences. It alienates a lot of people.

It is hard to lose cynacism. It's like a cancer, it can grow and spread bitterness and resentment to every corner of a person's life. I don't know if it can be cured.

Once you are cynical you can no longer relate to the rubes who have found comfort in God, the artist who truly believes that one more painting could change the world, or anyone who belongs to any group whatsoever. These people, and many more, will irritate the hell out of you. Everyone around you will look like an idiot unless they are as jaded as you. You will not see fit to join in any activity because it's all bullshit anyway. Why associate yourself with fools? You will no longer try because there is no point. The deck is stacked against you. Why be an optimist if that only means you'll wind up a fool?

Cynicism is an infected scar. The cynic has been burned (and most likely humiliated) and is determined never to do it again. The cynic is surprisingly afraid of looking foolish before fools. The cynic wears his inability to take part as a badge of honor- a sign of his superior intelligence. The cynic is not necessarily smarter than anyone else. I would go out on a limb to say that the cynic is more wounded than the rest of the populace. Why else would he be so angry and defensive?

Cynicism spreads aurally. I've heard of a "healthy dose of cynacism", but I believe you can question and challenge without being cynical. I'm not sure how, but this is how I am challenging my own cynacism. My healthy dose got out of control and spread throughout my body. My symptoms included snap judgments (always the right judgements, of course), a feeling of mental and moral superiority, an inability to see value in any kind of social or political construct or movement, seething anger, and an aversion to being part of anything.

Your symptoms may vary.

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